Sunday, November 18, 2007

LOVE.Again. =)

This post is dedicated to Abang Faiz, whom eagerly can’t wait for me to write about the updates of my life. He asked me to talk about LOVE. Again. Haha. So here goes another ranting about love Abang Faiz. Dedicated just for you.:p

Like I said before, talking about love will get you nowhere. Just try reading every article there are about this topic from Google. You’ll be wasting your life trying to define and find the meaning of this four sacred (or cursed) letter. Mostly, they come from experience(s). Well, when you are in love, it’s like it’s just the two of you in the world. Everything seems so right (although there are so many wrong things that you do) and you can’t stop thinking about that other person. The utopia of love. They can drive you crazy. Songs are written just to describe those feelings. You want to experience ‘When I Fall in Love”, “For Once in My Life”. “So Much in Love”, “Wonderwall” and this can lead to “Unfaithful” or “I Hate that I Love You” (Dang, I recalled Rihanna’s songs) and finally to either “I Do” or “First Cut is The Deepest”. Then, you either live happily ever after (with the songs of heartbreaks in between. Come on, life is not a fairy tale) or crying your eyes out and motivate yourself with “I Can Make It Through The Rain” and “Strong Enough” to move on with your life. Yes, songs definitely are a medium of expression. You can tell someone’s feelings through his / her music play list at the moment. Maybe to most people.

You want the happy ending right? But to achieve that, you just have to prepare for all these turbulences in between. Let they be insecurity, commitment phobic, long distance, the list is endless. You try to remind yourself over and over again not to give it all, not to trust someone so much it will endanger your state of mind. But all these quotes about losing your rationality when you are in love seem to make sense. You simply be irrational sometimes. Or most of the times. You try seeking for advises when you have problems in relationship. The cycle is almost the same with most people. Yes, this cycle determines the ending of your love story. For me, as long as it doesn’t involve cheating more than once (or maybe just simply cheating), abuse in any way or showing the wrong path of faith, it can still be saved. Perhaps.

Well, my main reason to write about this subject again is due to my never ending curiosity of love. Or maybe I am simply in love. If I am, I really want to make it lasts long. Marriage perhaps? Insyaallah. I hope this post keeps you happy Abang Faiz. Hehe. Can’t wait for your turn to talk about this topic :p.

For once in my life I have someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once, unafraid, I can go where life leads me
Somehow I know I'll be strong

For once I can touch what my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Would make my dream come true

For once in my life I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it hurt me before
For once, I have something I know won't desert me

I'm not alone anymore

For once, I can say, this is mine, you can't take it
As long as I know I have love, I can make it
For once in my life, I have someone who needs me

I hope I will always have this feeling. Amin. =)