RIP MJ~

All around the world, people are talking about Michael Jackson’s death.
The same people who brought him on top of the world and brought him down with all the molest stories; surgery went bad mockeries and all those tabloids.
I guess in a way, Michael had peacefully left a cruel world behind him.
However, he had also left a legacy which will continue to inspire the world so it can become a better place.
His songs always motivate and lift me up when I was down. I guess it’s the same with millions of people worldwide.
I guess that’s the impact of music and artists to our life. Especially when we grew up, listening to them.
Healer. Inspire.

May God bless his soul.

Dede akan berkahwin pada hari ini :D

Because my previous post is talking about Marriage, I would like to make an entry about someone who is about to get married later this day: my BFF! (Some of you know who this person is).

I’ve written hate memoirs before this for him, written some appraisal memoirs (ok, maybe one) but the fact I’ve stuck with him for five years so these things (Annoyance, care etc) were bound to happen right? And finally, this BFF of mine is getting married way earlier than any guys my age (and not to mention from me too) so I’m getting excited and would like to write an entry to wish him and his soon to be wife (which is one of the sweetest girl I ever met) a happily ever after.

I know he will become more mature(r) than before, hopefully wiser (especially in term of words he uses. Lol) and one heck of a dad to his future children (I mean kool. Gosh, why am I doing this? Haha). Last and definitely not least, he will be a great husband to his wife, because I know he is one loyal man and I know he loves her very much. Plus, I love the wife to be, she always back me up when he was being a jerk (sorry de, tak boleh puji all he way, it’s very hard :p).

Thus, to the most perfectly matched couple, which are my friends (and the first one to get married), Dede and Dian, I wish and pray your life together after this will always be blessed by Allah till the end of time (berbahagia sehingga ke anak cucu cicit). Oh, have fun while you’re at it! XOXO!

P/s: Reminiscence made me missed UTP. Deng.

Unwell.

I’m sick today. I’ve been unwell since the weekend started. Resulted in me missing wedding and any opportunity to go out. Being sick sucks. But maybe it’ll get my body to be better immunized for weeks to come, and for me not to fall sick on times where I CAN’T be sick.

I just want to reminisce the good times that happened recently. My cousins had a double wedding, which was the first among the cousins and it went well. Then, there’s my brother in law’s wedding (to my sis that is) which was a carnival, with wayang kulit, dikir barat, silat etc. It’ll be hard to top that Abang Ngah! Not Fair! Haha.

So many weddings this year, I keep getting ‘you-are-next’ hints from people. Just because my boyfriend is a bit old (lol ;p) and we seem serious (we are) so I think I will keep getting that until the day I really am getting married. Suddenly, from being involved in all these weddings, triggered something I never bother about before: What is my dream wedding? I always joke around and say I want to get married on the beach, with only nearest and dearest (not really original, but oceans have always been my favoritest place on earth) but I doubt the family will approve. Then, I figure, just do double or triple wedding in a nice hall, without having to bekerja keras for the preparation, with that, I can save money, time and energy. But my cousin says the weeks that we’ve worked together was something fun and would make the wedding more memorable.

Thus, I can’t define what my dream wedding is. Yet. What’s yours? I could start thinking when someone actually wants to marry me. (Is this a hint? Haha)

P/S: My sis dream wedding is on a cruise, so I hope it could come true because it would be wickedly awesome :p.

Friday is A Day of Salvation,

Today is Friday. It’s been 2 weeks and 2 days since I’ve started working at my new engineering company. Too early to comment I guess. But, the atmosphere was calm and contented. Easy and breezy. In the heart of the metropolitan neighbourhood. My ideal location of work. The work itself is un-commendable yet because haven’t done any major work yet. Just a little bit here and there.

What’s with the absent from writing?

Pouring your feelings sometimes can cause the less ideal outcome: the regret of telling things you should keep to yourself. The mundane stuff.

Anyway, time is a factor too. I am actually pride myself in not having to surf the internet the amount of time I’ve used to. Kudos for not having conformed to the digital world which is so tempting and easy to be lost in.

Ok. Enough of boring self statement.

Sad thing happened. Manchester United had lost the Champ League’s final without even trying to Barcelona. I guess it’s a dream final to Barca fans and the neutrals (a.k.a anti MU fans) as they watched MU being overplayed by a definite great team, which balls seem to stick to their legs most of times. I guess I shouldn’t comment more on this, the papers had done so. Whatever the neutrals want to say about MU supporters being defensive and all, I am still happy they’ve ended the season well. They’ve played some great footballs, some bad and annoying footballs, but in the end, what matters is the satisfaction of winning trophies. And they’ve had 3. They could win 5 but they didn’t, so God must be Fair to others (quote from another MU fan. Lol). Glory – glory MU, can’t wait to see them live this July!

Ok. Enough of football issue.

Terminator Salvation was an impressive movie. To me la at least because I was NEVER a bit interested in watching terminator movie / series before. It’s filled with actions and the script was not corny. The angles of the cameras were refreshing. Plus, the director’s name is McG. How cool is that? Haha. I think I can add new favorite actor to my existing list: Johnny Depp, Brad Pitt, Wentworth Miller, Josh Hartnett and now Christian Bale. I’ve liked him since he acted in the Prestige movie (Btw, again, I love Christopher Nolan movies).

Ok. That’s all with movie stuff.

I hope the weekend will be wickedly awesome. Hope is never a wrong thing to ask eh?
Cheers!

The Order of Universe.

She sits there. She stares at people walking past her. Some are speeding, either late for work, meeting, or naturally born to walk like that. Some are gliding, full with confidence, or maybe had just received some happy news. So many faces, emotions and attitude you could capture by just watching people. So, her mind wanders, speculating about people who caught her eyes. Why is she sitting there? Why isn’t she walking like them, going to their designated locations?

This is because it’s a foreign place to her. She doesn’t know where to go, what to do or who to talk to. One day, back at the familiar place, she decided she had enough. No more ridicules, no more stress, no more the need to satisfy the people Up Above. And so she quits. It’s not given up, as she likes to think, it’s simply opting the best choice there is.
She’s traveled far, because she doesn’t want to face criticism from people who think she’s made a fatal error. That she left what defines life, which is Normalcy and Haven.

Screw that! She screams inside. Screw society and their orders. I don’t need that now. Or ever. I need Happiness. Impossible, maybe, so to reach at least Contented is good enough.

So as she sits there, thinking about things that can make her happy. Artistic Flair or Voyager? Those things make her happy (so does with many of them), but the helm of possibilities either excites her or frightens her. She couldn’t decide.

Which one should she choose? Should she sit down with plans and strategies? Or should she just start doing whatever crosses her mind right away?

Or maybe, just go back home. And surrender to the Opponent.

She stands, and starts walking. Joining the crowd, she blends in. She’s just one of them after all.

Irony of Feelings.

I am both happy and sad.
Start with the sad news.
I’m just torn. Like the song Torn by Natalie Imbruglia.

I’m all out of faith, this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You’re a little late, I’m already torn.

As juxtaposition, I’m completely thrilled that MU is going to Rome!
Brilliant Ronaldo, Park, everyone basically. Completely gunned down the Gooners!(Opps..pun intended.Haha)
I love free flowing football. I wish they do that often. And to play Ronaldo as striker had worked for the team tonight(or morning. Wherever you are).

Sir Fergie is truly a living legend (besides Giggsy, Scholesy and numerous names in the past). Even Beckham enjoyed the match. Hehe.
The only setback (ok, major one) was Fletcher (he was great) was sent off. Really unwise decision (I want to say stupid, ok, stupid) by the ref.

Bring on Barca or Chelsea, United just have the B.E.L.I.E.V.E attitude for the moment!

To unwind my sadness in the first part (personal reasons), here’s the funny depiction of the song. Oh, and yea, Glory – glory!

Mind.Food.Drink.

I enjoy intellectual conversations. I do gossip (I am no angel), I do small talks and all, but what sticks in my mind longer than usual are conversations which are insightful (I always thought I have dory-the-fish-short-term memory. Sigh).

Like example, I’ve followed my boss and colleague to meet their client, where one of them was an ex TUDM pilot. I’ve listened to so many experiences he had for the many years he spent in the armed forces, about Tun, what happened in Bosnia and Acheh, also how God’s punishment can be done in seconds to people who are lost in this temporary material world. It’s scary when you think our world is becoming to its end somehow.

Today, I happened to have another insightful conversation, ranging from the state of our country, to academics, to languages and just life experiences. I love listening to stories from other people because by envying them, you could motivate yourself to be better. I miss conversing with people because when I was working before the people there were, erm, let’s just say not in the same wavelength as I am.

It’s hard to find someone you can tell everything to.
But it brings me some kind of relieved to share my thoughts with people who understand.
In the end of the day, I realize that I do give a damn about the world. And I need people to know. That’s all.

It was that kind of a crazy afternoon, terrifically cold, and no sun out or anything, and you felt like you were disappearing every time you crossed a road. ~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye, Chapter 1