One Sunday Evening...~

Okay,

Sunday always rain. And rain makes me mellow, hence the writing begins. What's with the sudden frequency of writing? They said the Mayan said this year is end of the world, hence everyone needs to fulfill their bucket lists.

Do I have a bucket list? The bottom right corner says so. The Bucket List before I turn 30. Looks like I have fulfilled most of them (I sometimes forgot I made them but the blog reminded me, so this blog is useful after all :)).

I think if God is willing to let the year continues a good more years, screw the Mayans prediction (and let me live of course), InsyaAllah I can fulfill all of them.

What's with the bucket list? It aims to motivate me. I think I should come out with a more outrageous ones, to push me outside my comfort zones. I have few things in mind that I think not many normal people can do, hence I'm gonna share them in this post, hopefully after few months (or years), look back at these posts and said, I've done at least one of these outrageous items! Let's take a look:

1. Bungee Jumping/ Sky Diving - I am scared of height. Oh well, more to scared of falling (explain the reason I never like roller coasters). I did roller coasters, now let's see if I have the balls (guts) to do any of these. In New Zealand ideally :p.


2. Attending Grammy/Emmy/Academy Awards/Prestigious Awards - Long shot!I can easily score passes for local ones but it was my shallow side that always long to be in any of these awards. And wear a dress. And feel like a celebrity. Feel important. I have to search for contests for this one then! :)


3. Watch a World Cup match - This is possible but God knows where I am / doing every time World Cup is ON. If I do this, I will complete my football checklist (EPL - Checked, Champs League - Checked, World Cup - Pending)


4. Meet my idol - I've met some of them, I want to be inspired by meeting the rest. Namely Richard Branson and/or Oprah. I still don't lose hope!


5. Mentioned in paper/website. Another long shot, as I need to be famous to be talked about, let's see if I can make this a reality.

I'm going to stop at 5, because I'm a realist. I'm going to keep on making resolutions/bucket list as I do believe in aiming for the stars, for if you fail, you can always reach the clouds. I'm such a corny person.

"The world is awesome, it's humanity that sometimes just sucks - Top Commenter, Youtube"

Sunday Rants.

I have the need to write. Because I am somehow felt overburden by dark feelings. I think I'm affected easily because I am an empathetic person.I am easily inspired, I easily get paranoid, all kind of emotions, from one extreme to another one in a split minute.

I guess everyone has a dark side. The level of darkness is what separate people. How much you are showing your dark side is another spectrum. I always believe people have alter egos. A character (either good or bad..or just different) that nobody (or limited people) are aware of. It's a form of escapism in a way. It's a battle everyday to let good conscience take over the bad one. That is why it's very important not to judge people quickly. A seemingly good samaritan might have dark secrets while the obvious asshole might be a discreet philanthropist. You get my drift.

Hence I need my faith to hold on to. I know I'm a sinner, knowingly or not, and I believe that Judgement Day will decide if I am a good enough person to go to this beautiful place called Jannah. Or not. As the world has legal system, I believe the afterworld has too. The difference is, you can escape the world legal system, but God saves all the proofs and you can't runaway from it.

Yes, I've been watching Dexter, hence the expression writing. It's disturbing and intriguing at the same time, I am overwhelmed by the whole concept of the series. I can relate to his monologue, I'm not saying I have the tendency to kill people as I am still sane, but about life and characters. Like I said, I am an empathetic person, hence easily affected. I alternate watching Dexter with something positive as I want to avoid letting it gets to me so much. I guess writing about it shows how much the show affects me in some ways or another. Human characters always fascinate me.

In the end, life goes on. While it still can.

Let Light prevails Darkness.