Kerja. Work. Emploi.

That's why it's a DREAM....*sigh*

I’ve been thinking, life isn’t always fair to us. People will never be contented with what they have. I’m one of those people.

I believe in ‘just go with the flow’ attitude. Ok, first I’ve worked in a telesales company, I thought that would definitely help my interpersonal skills, well, it did for few days, but the routine was very depressing, I just had to break free from the job. I did.

Next, my current job, again, diverted from my course of study (which by the way was not my first choice, or second, even third, you get what I mean). The job description was everything I have wanted to do; writing, creative thinking, filming. Who doesn’t want to be involved in something so fascinating like all those things?

Anyhoo, the reality isn’t that exciting. Yes, I did have my ‘fun’ moments, but it went downhill after. I mean, I crave for an adventure in life, so doing research on the internet and just wait for the big break to happen is quite frustrating. I know, patience is virtue, but my logical thinking override my passion. Plus, I love writing in English, so for me to write in Bahasa (bukan tidak suka, cuma tidak pakar menggunakan frasa kata dan kosa kata yang indah seperti bos saya) is a big challenge. I think learning all the technical knowledge had turned me into someone who always think of consequences of my actions.

Boring, I know. Thus, I’ll pray life will take me to my next adventure. Wherever and whatever that might be. Anyway, my dream job is something like my current job, but with actions take place, rather than writing the actions on piece of papers and they are not going anywhere, meaning I’m not going anywhere. Resulting in me writing in blog while searching for ideas. Again, boring.

It's no fun to be yellow. Maybe I'm not all yellow. I don't know. I think maybe I'm just partly yellow and partly the type that doesn't give much of a damn if they lose their gloves.

~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye, Chapter 13

PENYELIA.

Mengapakah bos wujud di dunia ini? Dan, mengapakah bos kadang – kadang boleh menjadi begitu menjengkelkan sehingga kerja yang dianggap seronok dan menarik itu membuatkan diri terasa bagaikan dihempap beribu-ribu lemon? (yes, just like the advertisement minus the excitement).

Keseronokan tidak akan kekal lama.

Nothing lasts forever kata seorang ahli falsafah. (Or mungkin kata average joe. You don’t know who joe is? Just take a mirror and you’ll know).

Kepeningan itu seperti perkara yang paling senang terjadi apabila kita mahu mengelak diri daripada berfikir. You can’t run away from problem, because problem won’t magically disappear (kuota (quote?) dari Buku Corporate Communication yang saya mengakui saya memang hebat tanpa segan silu.

Jadi, apakah cara terbaik untuk menangani bos begitu?

Quit?(dipanggil loser / quitter)

Start your own business? (applicable to anak orang kaya atau seorang yang cekal kerana kemiskinan bukan penghalang)

Or endure those entire BS because you’ll end up taking his place (berangan – angan) one fine day and you can act exactly like him to your staff? It’s karma, and karma is revenge and revenge is sweet.

Satu sahaja masalah. You’ll never be without a boss. Because boss(ES) can be in so many forms. Maybe there are your parents who act like one, or your spouse, or even your cat, because they keep bugging you for food and even yourself.

Jadi, marilah kita tabah menghadapi dugaan The CEO up above.

The ultimatum of a being is being nothing (ahli falsafah pessimist in the making).

The ultimatum of a being is being everything (ahli falsafah optimist in the making).

The ultimatum of a being is being in between nothing and everything (kata-kata warga indecisive)

WENG MOOD STRIKES AGAIN!

Dunia Gila.

This song just haunts me…
I love the lyrics.
Because it’s insightful.
Not that I don’t listen to shallow lyric songs (like hip hop or pop)
But those are for FEEL GOOD moments. Where you don’t have to think too much to get what it means.
But when the song has great melody and great lyrics, it would just hit you hard in the heart (or brain. Wherever you want to interepret the songs).
Maybe just me.
Or maybe because Adam Lambert sang it *drool*
I hope he’s not GAY because it would be a TOTAL WASTE for female population.
Just a random thought.
Just feel like this SONG is great.
Goodnight.

Btw, the song is MAD WORLD, originally by Tears for Fears, sang amazingly by Adam Lambert (*drool again*).

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

Drama.Fiction.Facts.

Okay. So my job exposes me to facts that is always there but never bothered to Google or care about. I guess others won’t too unless it is portrayed in a way people want to watch it.

I’m going to talk about docu drama, documentary which is dramatized to make it appear more appealing to viewers. People like to see some unrealistic actions portrayed, that’s why people go and pay 8 to 10 bucks (even 40 bucks) for a good movie.

I have some pretty confusing time to absorb the theory of docu drama. Does it have to be like movie, with characters and story line, or is it still documentary with re enactment actions? I’m talking jargons here. Don’t blame me; they are all alien terms to me too. Moreover, I have to be an independent learner because the Others work in other dimension.

Wiki says, docudrama is dramatization of actual historical events. As a neologism, the term is often confused with docufiction. See? I am confused.

Docudramas tend to demonstrate some or most of the following characteristics:

1) A focus on the facts of the event being treated, as they are known;
2) The use of literary and narrative techniques to flesh out or render story-like the bare facts of an event in history;

If it’s up to me, I would dramatize the whole thing. Add some fiction, but it would be a movie la then (or is it docufiction? Oh confusion). With turbulences (i.e actions) in big scale plus scripts like V for Vendetta. Gosh, that sounds dreamy. If only money is no objection, or somehow Steven Spielberg or Christopher Nolan (I love nearly ALL his movies) miraculously want to fund my idea.

Anyhow, being able to watch you tube for work is FUN. But, I’m getting skeptical by my logical thinking…*Sigh*

The public has an appetite for anything about imagination - anything that is as far away from reality as is creatively possible.

Steven Spielberg

FEEDBACKS please.

This post is to stimulate thinking and to find that eureka moment.

Anyone who is reading is, with all my typing strength, I ask a few seconds / minutes of your time to give opinion about these issues I am going to list down. Do you want these issues to be brought up through the camera lenses? Or do you think it’s too controversial?

1. Segregation of Race
The truth. I don’t have any non – Malay friend I could invite back home (oh, maybe 1) or just hang out with casually. Yes, I do have non – Malay friends and I don’t have any racism issues toward them (or I like to believe so) but why is it hard to befriend them? My reason is because I went to a boarding school where 99% are Malays. And in my university there were about 80% Malays in my course. It’s sad isn’t it thinking how near we live to each other but how far apart our relationship is. I believe everyone should be treated equally (although I admit I’m one of those who have enjoyed the privilege of being a Malay). Up till this point, words speak way louder than actions. I just need to see some or small breakthrough in breaking the races barrier we are all carrying with us all these while.

2. Kids being kidnapped, sold / murdered / never found again
I am getting a bit emotional when it comes to this issue. Especially since the past two years, we’ve seen two major cases which by the way, it’s not solved yet. I’ve heard story from someone (can’t remember who) who told me about kid being kidnapped and few years later bumped into him / her in Bangkok, as a beggar. We’ve seen this being portrayed in many movies but how the reality is never really depicted. Or maybe it’s too sensitive as it questions the authority. Anyway, home was safe once. Now, it’s filled with beasts that go around terrorizing people.

3. Story of ordinary people going through extraordinary life
Apart from those two mind stressing issues, we all need inspiration in life. I’m sure we have people who do inspire people in what they do, where they eventually become the public figure. But do you want to be inspired by a normal average Joe like yourself? If you know anyone worth enough to be a role model, please drop me a line.

Okay, you guys must be wondering what the purpose of this? Why so serious right? Let’s just say, a small step might be a giant leap for my dream to be materialized. I’ll greatly appreciate your help.