Mama~

One of the days I have troubling sleeping. And refuse to study. My mind is wandering. So I need to write. What a disorder. I thought of writing a memoir for my mother on 13th May because it was her birthday, and in conjunction with mother’s day. It might be a tad too late but I want to tell people what a great woman my mom is. So here goes my late (better than never) memoir.

Dear Mama,

You have been living in this earth for 50 years and the things you have been through never fail to remind me that you are indeed an amazing woman. To summarize everything in my writing will do you injustice. But to write none is simply unacceptable. You are the breadwinner of the house, raising four daughters (who are all different and all flawed with imperfection) quite alone (with the help of arwah Atuk and Nenek. God bless them) through all these years. We were (and still are) stubborn, sometimes too often hurt you in words or actions. How you were patient and taught us with love and advices all these years. You never force us to do anything, but the education you gave us hopefully will reward you with lavish life you are supposed to have. You never complaint about having to raise us by yourself, and always remind us that God is always the One you have to remember in every aspect of your life. Yes, I pray everyday (although I am not a strong follower) that you will be placed in heaven because you have done everything it is to be done for us, as a mother, provider, friend and as a person. I’ve put you on the pedestal not only because ‘syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu’, because you are simply above any definition of a great mother. Yes, people will always say good things about their mothers, but to me, you are not ordinary, you’re simply miraculous. And it’s a miracle I have a mother like you. I am not good in saying things like this in person, but this is how I truly feel. I hope God will give you good health for a long time for me to be able to repay you. This is going to be forever, because that’s how much I’m indebted to you. I’m sorry for all the hurtful things I’ve said or done. Hopefully I can achieve even half of what you have achieved mama. You are simply the best role model a girl can have. I Love You.