Moscow, Here MU come =)

I am Happy. Very. I haven’t talked about football for quite sometimes because I am not an expert giving comments on the technical aspects of football. But I want to blog about the champs league semi final 2008. It was scary, yet the ending was so sweet I am estatic till now (considering I HAVE to study for my HSE test. Lol). The last 10 minutes seem forever. Messi was great, but he didn’t get much help. And it’s great that Henry was not on starting 11. His header this time didn’t do as well as the last time. Heh. Barca played well, ball possession was theirs. But Scholes’s goal said it all. He didn’t get the chance to play in final 9 years ago, and he made up for those lost years. I think Nani was the least performer of all, but he was like Ronaldo once, so hopefully he’ll get better. The BELIEVE sign from the fans touched my heart. I do believe in MU. Always will. So, who ever MU will face in Moscow, and whatever the result is, they are a winner to me. Hehe. Cliché. I know. Now all the final year stress was greatly relieved for now. I never thought football can affect me this much. Ok, enough said. To all anti MU, we have proven something today. Not to brag, just a pride of being a fan of the bestest football club =). I do hope they stop being harsh to MU. Football is a beautiful game. Joga Bonito. So the support should be anti biased too. Huhu. Glory2 anyway =).

Faith

I cannot sleep. Again. Do I think too much? I have so many questions need answering. Like I have in my mind now: When is ready is ready? When is enough is enough? Like the question: Am I ready to settle down? Not that I’m saying I’m getting married soon, but I want to get married someday. Will I be ready? Do I have the criterias of a good wife? I define good as in the concept of Islam. I’ve just watched the movie Ayat-ayat Cinta, which conveyed so many moral values it struck me how imperfect I am. Ok, I’m comparing myself to those who embraced Islam so beautifully it made me cry.

So, I am doing a lot of thinking (as usual) of the search of my inner peace. I’m far from perfection, but I really want to be a step closer at a time. I sometimes tell myself why do I commit all the sins although I often write about being better? I guess worldly temptation gets to me most of times. I know that action speaks louder than words, but words are better than nothing right? I don’t mind being criticized for only talk and no apparent actions take place, because I admit I am a weak and fragile follower of God. I love my religion, but I’m still lost in taking the right path of this faith. I love reading or watching how beautiful Islam is without being prejudiced to people and I am sad to see radicals who made people fearful of Islam. I’m sure most people have watched the documentary ‘fitna’ made by a Holland politician (can’t remember his name). That documentary enraged me, but not to the point I want to boycott Holland’s products because to me, there are better ways of showing the meaning of real Islam. Islam is not a religion that avenge. Such as the movie I’ve mentioned. It might not be a perfect movie, but the message deeply resides in my mind, stimulate my thinking, hence the post at 4 a.m.

Sometimes, when I wrote about faith and being better, I felt like I have no rights to talk about it. But, I am a muslim, and like one of my friends quote: If a smoker advises you not to smoke; don’t look at the fact he is a smoker, but focus on the word of advises (Something like that. Hehe). So, there goes another entry on faith and the hopes of becoming a better muslim. And the questions of life need answering. Hopefully one day I will truly understand it. Amin.

Gosh. I’m having this biological clock problem every time I am in UTP. Sleep late. Wake up late. Sleep in the evening. And stay up until the eve of dawn. Why does my brain works best during these hours? A mystery of life yet to be revealed. The negative impacts are frightening though. Skipped classes (deng), my skin condition worsen (now I feel like investment in skincare is useless if you don’t obey the universal law of skin care: Drink plenty of water, Exercise and Enough SLEEP. Deng, I haven’t done those, especially the exercise and sleeping part) and the list goes on. It’s funny when at home, even during holiday, I can’t stay up despite the existence of Astro. Maybe because there is a large community in UTP that is having the same problem as mine, thus make it lively at nights.

But anyway, at least I’ve managed to finish my assignments and projects when I’ve stayed up. I think the Hollywood crisis contributed the most to this achievement. No scripwriter = No series to watch = Clueless = Do assignments. Get it? Haha. Although I still think academic activities are the least fun thing to do. Duh. The longer I am in UTP, the more I think of how different I could be. I don’t know if hipocracy is applied (well, I think lots of people are though) but I have different perception and different thinking when I’m in this university. Honestly, people always say UTP is too boring, UTP is lame, UTP blablabla (bad stuff) but I find that the opposite. Sure, I found this place the dullest place on earth once upon a time, but with time, with experiences, with memories the 360 degree change of heart happens. Maybe because of the people. I think I always talk about people in UTP right? Well, they make my life in UTP bearable, even fun. I mean my friends. One day I will write a full review of each of them. A memoir perhaps.

I think I’ve wrote about this topic because I’ve spent the last few weeks with the people who have been with me for years. The event, the dinner, the bbq, the mapley outings, the karoke etc.To talk about all these events would be endless. Just making a point that life in UTP will not be LAME if you know how to UNLAME it. Hehe. Bonjour people =).

"Do not save your loving speeches for your friends till they are dead; Do not write them on their tombstones, Speak them rather now instead."

Jan04 Guys and Girls..Hehe =D

For the past month, I kept reading other people blogs, rather than updating mine. Because to talk about what’s happening in my life would be endless rantings and baseless, even boring maybe to some. Anyhow, I need to write again. After all the things that happened. I really wanted to upload some photos, but all up to beloved UTP ‘fast’ internet connection. Anyhow, here go the updates of my life.

1. MU is making me happy everytime I went to watch them playing. Liverpool match was great; also the recent Boro draw was so exciting my adrenaline rush was the best and worst feeling I had when watching football. I hope Chelsea and Arsenal will drop more points so MU can beat them. Hehe. And owh yeah, MU to be in the final of Champs League. That Ronaldo guy is surely on fire. Whatever Cadaver to Anti MU :p.

2. Euphonius. It was the greatest of all compared to the music fest and previous Eupho that I went to because the performances were superb. Plus, our effort of doing The Capoiz banner really paid off because they were the Champion. Second (and sadly last) time in a row. I was (still are) proud of my friends. And also the supporters. Our batch was not as lame as people thought of. Not to me anyway.

3. Dinner Jan04. Yes people. It’s finally over. Despite all the flaws, I was quite happy with how things turned out. I didn’t want to blame or point my fingers to anyone, but I would LOVE to thank everyone, especially the committee for all these hard works we’ve put in. And for sticking through the thick of time. And sorry if ter ‘emo’, as it was a norm when handling an event. People like to express dissatisfaction because well, people like easy and comfortable things. To be appreciated just by a simple thank you could really make you felt like you have done something right. But I have to tolerate and be patient with the buzzing of those ignorant, justice seeker parties. I am fine and able to say sorry if I have done mistakes, so people, sorry for the imperfect dinner. That was the best we could come up with (well, I know we could do better but it has happened right). And don’t worry, we did that out of sincerity and won’t use your balance portion of money to bersuka ria or buat business. Lol. Tangan kanan memberi, kanan kiri don’t have to know. So, the donation or any good deeds that we will do don't have to be exposed. Just a clarification on the issue so justice is served. Anyway, like Payeh said, majority wins. So if people were fine and had fun, I considered that as success. Put aside or differences, I had found that I actually love my batch. Seriously, they are fun bunch of people I will remember the rest of my lives. Thanks for the memories guys.


Okay, so now it’s back to the REAL world. Where studies (projects, tests) take control of everything. God, please gives me strength to get through these few more weeks so I can end my semester successfully and peacefully. Amin.